Wednesday, August 27, 2008

What if she's UGLY??

While eating breakfast this morning and admiring the fresh-cut flowers at the table, I made a stark realization.

The baby I’m having in a few weeks might not look anything like I’ve imagined her to look.

Ever since I learned that I’m having a girl, I’ve been daydreaming about the perfect genetic combination of Hunt and Teague. This basically means curly auburn red hair, perfect skin, bright blue eyes, and an hourglass figure. Really, something like this:






Imagining a perfect-looking child is a dangerous game and I’ve already rolled the dice.

I don’t know how to get out of it now. I’m going to try to spend the next few weeks thinking “ugly” thoughts about the baby. Like a girl with thin wimpy hair (like me). Or a recessed chin. Or not having defined waist or hips as a woman. Having one blue eye and one brown one. Having some sort of disease where she can’t grow any teeth. Resembling a squirrel. Having acne so badly that she has to go into hiding from age 13-16.

I’m hoping that by imagining the worst, even if she has one lame trait (like my lame hair), I won’t be angry about it. This morning when I imagined being handed my baby and not seeing red hair, my first reaction was to say, “Oh no! Look at your stupid hair! NOW what are we going to do?!??” Not exactly the picture of a nurturing mother.

I’ve been praying for three things for baby girl all along: 1.) that she be mentally and physically healthy 2.) that she lives her life for Jesus 3.) that she has JB’s beautiful hair.

We’ll see if I can go 3 for 3.

If not, I’ll try my best to bite my tongue.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

She won't be ugly.

But what even more important:

"Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised."
Proverbs 31:30

je

Dave said...

you're hoping to have a full grown adult baby that looks like Nicole Kidman? Reminds me of the Will Farrell skit. Even if she is a little funky looking, you'll think her squirrel ears are cute. Jess Fick

dave and sarah o said...

she will be a beauty!! the moment you lay your eyes on her im sure you and JB will melt :) less than 2 months wow!!

Michigan Girl said...

April:
I know what you mean--when I think about Brian and I's potential kids, I always imagine them getting his athletic talent, my self motivation, and both our brains. I have this fear that he/she would end up less than smart, with both our tendencies to put on weight. However, honestly, when it's all said and done, no matter what she looks like, you'll adore her.
HLN

Haller4307 said...

Ha! i did the same thing. I pictured a cute baby and then at the end I pretended she was gonna be ugly just in case!! then i was pleasantly relieved!