Thursday, April 10, 2008

I don't do change like this.

So when JB pitched this new blog to me, I thought he wanted me to post on this IN ADDITION to my current blog on Xanga. Honestly, I thought that this would be where I could park my boring life updates, like about the baby, etc., and leave more interesting pieces for my Xanga. I personally do not like reading about other people's kids unless I personally know them or their kids. And I'd like my blog to be generally enjoyed by both strangers and friends.

Now, friends who read my Xanga, I know what you're thinking: "What strangers read your blog?!??" Okay, so none, really, that I know of. I mean, I get hits on my blog from all over the country but to date only one stranger has ever made a comment on my blog. So I really don't know if these strangers even enjoy my Xanga or if they are just really, really bored at work.

But that doesn't take away from my dream. My dream is that some magazine editor or other influential writing person will stumble upon my Xanga some day and read the handful of entertaining stories that I have on there and think, "This is the new author I've been looking for!!" Or, at least, that this person would affirm me in my work and comment positively on my blog.

JB says it doesn't happen that way. Hmmm....maybe that's why I call it a dream, and not a goal, you turd!

So, anyway, I'm still struggling with the changeover. Not only do I love my Xanga, but I just don't want to lose my identity in having a baby, etc. This is a very difficult struggle for me and one of the reasons I waited until now to have children. And I feel that this blog is akin to moving to the suburbs or buying a minivan. "It's what you do when you start a family." And for those of you that know me, I will NEVER move to the suburbs nor own a minivan (no offense to anyone who does this--if you don't buy the minivans that just means there's more on the lot for JB to taunt me with). I don't do things because everyone else does. I am not a lemming.

So I still need time to determine if abandoning my old blog means I'm running over the cliff...

1 comment:

Heather said...

my friend tim is traveling the south pacific w/ YWAM because of his blog. (
there is hope! :)